what happens??

this few days i keep asking myself:what happens to me??

dont talk about my bad luck 1st, my study! finally, i realise why i became more and more lazy to study my course: I DON'T HAVE INTERESTED ON IT!! lats time, why i choose this subject?My bro say good then i take lo~

yesterday exam, although i had study a lot, but i really cant did well in the exam. i wonder, where my knowledge about this subject go?? even let me success to pass this time, what is the point for me to continue it?jz for pass? if i fail, then i will terminate by UTAR, then at last i still have to leave!!

yea..i got few close friend at Kampar, kenny,thomas, chee ann, pipu, yin syn and many many..but, should i emphasize my study problem 1st?sorry guys...

havent tell my dad about my decision..scare i will make him worry..i shouldn't make him worry anymore..Jia Hong say the final decision is in my hand, just do what i want to do..i can imagine what my bro told me, but i will still face him,bravely!

yesterday, my laptop broke...motherboard problem..Jia Hong and Dennis say if i want to change, then better i buy a new laptop!coz motherboard quite expensive..Arghh..why every bad things happen on me?!!this laptop just bought for not even 1 year, and its rm4000!!!

i dunno how to tel my dad, really...can i say:dad, i dun want study b.a ady, i want change course, then ptptn will gone and we need pay them back the money rm7000, then my laptop broke, i need buy 1 new 1, around rm2000 if its cheap! can i say so? NO! i will never let my dad work hard just because of me!

if fail, most probably i will appeal!then ptptn gone also nevermine, i can pay them back, but i think i wont buy a new laptop ady, at least before i settle my study problem 1st.

GOD, please...just let everything stop at here...i cant accept more bad things that happen on me..please..listen to my pray...